Can’t start over now

I know I’m going to look back in a few years during my time in China and tell myself “You’re a moron because you barely got anything done.”
That doesn’t mean I’m not going to try my best to clamber back on the writing cabin. I miss reading. I miss writing. I miss creating something. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I think I was way more productive when I was working a full-time job…probably because I DIDN’T have time to procrastinate.
Well, I don’t want to live with regrets anymore. I’ve gained weight, gained some kind of sleep addiction that I severely need to break and I’m eating shitty food. I’m lucky I’m married to such a hard worker like David and his faults are easy to ignore when I’m being so bad myself.
I will not go to the gym today. Today, I’m going to dedicate to starting the Writing Planner and figuring out how I want to spend 2017. Do I want to completely throw aside the Fionn Jameson brand and keep going forward with another pen name? Or do I at least want to finish the Blood Martyr series and slowly peter the brand off and make the transition to other pen name more gradual?
Sigh. Dilemma, dilemma. I need to talk to a writing coach or something. It’s really hard being a writer sometimes. It’s a lonely job, which I kind of like, but it does have its drawbacks, that’s for sure.
My goals today are:
  1. Get 2k for HMM #2
  2. Work on Writing Planner
  3. Study JP for 1 HR
  4. Read for 1 HR
  5. Draw for 2 HR
  6. Do laundry, early, like 10 or 11, so it’ll have a while to draw
  7. Clean the kitchen a bit (it’s a mess and I’m too lazy to care right now)
  8. Write a new blog entry for Fionn Jameson
  9. Check out ebook designing course from Udemy (not very useful, found tutorials online to be far more informative)
I’ve thought about this, and I just can’t let Fionn Jameson go, no matter what. I’ve come too far, learned too much and I’ve got a weird attachment to Tanith, Jamison and Kieran. I need them to be happy.
I also need to work on the udemy course I bought on making better looking ebooks.
So, lots to do today, but I’m motivated and ready to get some work done. I’ve got about 3 years to make up for *dies*