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FUUUU…the new computer died away. I think it has something to do with how I set up the hard drives. It’s going to be a PITA to reinstall all my programs again, but I don’t think I have to reformat the regular HD, so that’s something, I suppose.
Today, it’s Friday and usually on Fridays, I like to fuck off, but today I want to get some writing done because yesterday I only got 1.3k finished, and I was supposed to get 4k. It’s about 15 minutes past ten, and I want to write as much as I can before lunch. For lunch, I think I’m just going to have instant noodles. I’m going to feel like crap eating it, but there’s really nothing else I want to eat. Besides, I’m going to the gym and then eating bulgogi that I started marinating last night.
I’m definitely looking forward to dinner.
I’m thinking I need to start editing before I write, because clearly editing after writing is NOT HAPPENING at all. I’ll edit for 2 15-min sessions. We’ll see how that goes.
Well, here goes.
Also, I’ve started to read at night instead of playing Harvest Moon. Read Lincoln Child’s Death Match until 1 and then woke up at 5 and I feel okay. I might have to take a nap around 1 or 2, but I really need to make sure that stays an hour long.
Okay, I need to go away now.
Hm…I guess I didn’t write in this yesterday? I finished Evolution on Tuesday. There’s a lot I have to fix, but for now I’ve got a rough lump put together with clay (words) and now I have to get out my chisel and start making the thing look vaguely-humanlike.
For now, though, I have to work on finishing THD #3. Yesterday, I got down 1.6k of new words while waiting for my kids to show up for class. I’m starting my work day a little late. Note to self: next time if I have a shake for dinner, make sure to drink it before 6, otherwise I’ll spend half the night going to the bathroom. It was weird reading what I had written quite a long time ago, almost a year ago. I’m really hoping I can finish it by next Saturday. It’ll be nuts. I have to write 4k, but Red, my writing coach, is doing that too, so I don’t feel so alone. 4k means 6 15-minute sessions so I’ll have to get on that soon.
I also have to start think about starting the short story/novella for the summer charity sometime this weekend. I know I want to write something Japan oriented. If I could, I’d write something based in Korea, but the name system is so clunky. Otherwise, I’d only ever write about about Korean dudes, HAA.
I also need to do some reading today. Instead of playing HM, I really need to write at night. Or stop taking such long naps. Ugh, but I really do love them long afternoon naps SO much. But now it’s time to do some work.
Today I want to do 6 15-minute writing sessions, some drawing and I really need to get some editing done. Maybe 2 editing sessions and 2 reading sessions. Got a whole bunch of JPop to write to, so I should be good as far as writing music goes.
As far as my mindsight goes, I’m feeling pretty good. I guess if there’s one thing I know I’m shirking, it’s the fact that I’m really pushing my edits away. God, I hate edits so much. I hate looking at my failure of words and being confronted with them over and over again. It’s like a painter being forced to look at his 6th year old self’s artwork and feeling all cringeworthy and embarrassed about it.
I really have to get more classes next week. I need a minimum of 4 classes if I’m ever going to pay for any edits, sigh.
Otherwise, I’ll have to edit my own stuff, and there’s no way I can do that, not to the level I would feel comfortable releasing it to the public and making them pay for it.
Right, that’s enough chattering from me, let’s get to my words for the day!
I am so close to being done with EVOLUTION. I’m still not sure if the ending is a bit of a let down, but I’m going to stick with it. I got my arting done for the day, sort of, so I want to do maybe 4 or 5 sessions of writing today. I tried to write 6 yesterday, but by the time I finished my 4th session, it was almost 9 and my brain was just dead. So, my goal is to get my writing done by lunch time and then spend the rest of the day editing and reading. I’d like to get it all done by 11, if possible, so I’m just going to write this for another 5 minutes and then get writing.
Gosh, now that I set the timer, I’m not sure how to progress.
I can tell you that I’ve been writing the past few days slightly out of order. Since I already know what’s going to happen, I pick what I want to write and then the rest just follows through.
I think I’m going to do that now.
Remember, the first 100 words are always the hardest…
As far as EVOLUTION goes, I am seriously close to the end. Naoki just told Reika that Lily was responsible for the bomb and now Suzu is going to tell them to get in the truck. Reika is about to tell her that she won’t be going anywhere with them, but she knows Suzu and Naoki will try to stop her, so she’ll agree to get on the truck.
Then the next big scene after that is her locating the Chiba leader and challenging him to the duel. She’ll win and then it’ll be the epilogue.
So, yeah…not a whole lot more to write.
Yesterday, I got down 2.1k in 3 sessions of 15 minute, so 45 minutes. Not bad. I’m hoping I can get down 6 sessions today. I think I can. 15 minute, plus 5 minute break in between, so that’s 6 * 15 which is 1.5 hours, adding in 5 5-minute breaks, which is an additional 25 minutes, so I figure it’ll take 2 hours of just writing with small breaks in between. I guess I’ll do a session or two while waiting for the bread to swell, then have lunch, write 2-3 session, take that walk, and then write the remainder. Either way, I think it’s very possible I can finish my writing for the day by the time evening hits. Then I’m going to go back to editing THD #2, something I haven’t done in a while.
Okay, at this point, I’m procrastinating. Quick bathroom break and then it’s time to write. Let’s go!
And this is where things start to slowly fall apart…just kidding. I hope.
No writing done yesterday. My excuse is that the main computer went totally tits up and I had to reinstall Windows, take out and put one of the internal hard drives back in, and then figure out why things were not working the way they ought to. I had to redownload all the drivers and I’m still trying to figure out how to get my 2TB hard drive to work on the big computer. That took up most of the day yesterday and then I left the house for about two hours last night, going to the gym and then showing Beka (a new friend of mine) where to buy chicken at the local Century Mart.
Hopefully things will turn out to be more productive today, although I’m going to have to get some shuteye later today…slept very poorly last night. Woke up at 1:30 in the morning because it sounded like something incredibly heavy landed on the roof upstairs. Of course, every time this happens, I keep thinking “Oh Jesus, someone jumped from the 20th floor and landed just outside our porch.” It’s hilarious that I automatically jump to the conclusion that there’s a corpse on our porch. Never “Oh crap, a couple got into a fight and the wife threw the TV out the window.” Nope, it’s always “Oh crap, a couple got into a fight and the husband threw the WIFE out the window.” LOOOL…in a very sad way.
Right now, I’m just going to jump right into Evolution and once I get down my minimum 2k, I’m going to take a nap. I can’t function without sleep. I really need to figure out my sleeping situation because I really don’t think it’s working. Either that or just get to sleep earlier than midnight.
Well…I’m 31 now. How underwhelming. I really did think I was going to be in a better place than I am now. Let’s hope my 32nd birthday I can look back and say my 31st year was much better than my 30th.
Yesterday I didn’t write. I didn’t read. Mostly I just slept. It was strangely therapeutic. I think my body knew aside that I might’ve needed it, since last night I basically did not sleep at all because David didn’t sleep. I got some sleep after he left for work, but I still woke up at 9 and farted around until noon, when I went to Walmart and picked up some stuff for dinner. Dave offered to take me out, but I don’t really want to go out, nor is there any place I’d want to eat at. If anything I might want to check out the GuaMao buffet, but I doubt it would be worth the super pricey cost. So, I just bought some beef and potatoes and I’ll probably make some salisbury steak and mashed potatoes. Dave thinks he’s going to cook. Haaah. I need to make extra, so he’ll have something to take to work tomorrow. That cafeteria food is bound to be absolutely shite.
I’ve got about 18k more to go for EVOLUTION. I’m nearing the part where Reika comes into grips of her new powers and she has to decide exactly what she wants to do with it. She’s sacrificed herself so that Hayashi and Himeya can get to the safezone with the needed supplies. Initially, I made it where Himeya sac’ed herself so Reika can survive, but then I thought about it and realized that Reika couldn’t let such a thing happen. She’s sick of being scared. I don’t know if that’s just me writing through my characters, but I’d like to think that at some point, she’d be done acting like a coward.
Jaycee emailed me to tell me she’ll get started on the cover tomorrow. Wow. Didn’t expect she could get to it so soon. I’ve got so many half-finished projects, I really shouldn’t be starting something new ala THE BEAST QUEEN. I don’t know. But honestly, I think I’m starting to get a little sick of writing in 1st person now. 3rd person is so much more…I dunno, free-ing. Maybe that’s why I’m deciding to start something new, because everything else is in 1st person.
So, it’s 6PM and I still need to write 2k of THE BEAST QUEEN, which I am going to try my best to do.
I wrote 2k of EVOLUTION in half an hour and I’m paying for it now. My hands hurt. Actually, my left hand hurts and clenching and unclenching it feels super weird. Actually, my whole left arm feels like there’s something wrong. I really don’t want to get carpal tunnel syndrome. Jesus, that would be so fucking bad. So, when I do my 2k sprint, I’m going to pace myself and just do 2k in one hour, as opposed to half an hour. It’ll take longer, but hopefully I won’t work my hands to death.
So I followed the new plan for EVOLUTION and that kind of threw all the rest of my chapter beats into a bit of a tizzy. I’ll have to figure out the aftermath tomorrow, because for now I just want to focus on THE BEAST QUEEN.
Note: I sent an email to Jaycee to see if she can design the cover for EVOLUTION. She did such a great job with ASURA NIGHT, and I’m hoping that I’ll have the funds to pay her when she is finished. Mrs. Zhou contacted me today and told me she’d notify when the classes are all organized. I suspect they will start sometime next week, which is okay with me. In the meanwhile, I’ll just write as much as I can. I’m hoping I can finish EVOLUTION by the time the classes start.
Of course, then I have to pay more attention to THE BEAST QUEEN and HIS UNTIL DAWN. I really need to start making more money on my books. Maybe I need to have some kind of coaching session with Rebecca Hamilton or Storm/Paulsen to figure out how I can maximize my profits.
I really need to get editing on THE HANDSOME DEVIL 2, DARK MOON RISING, and IN HIS ARMS. Sigh. So much to do and yet I spend all this time fucking around. Still, at least I’m writing more consistently every day, so that’s got to count for something, right?
Okay, so let’s talk about THE BEAST QUEEN. Really don’t like that title, but it’ll just be a placestander for now.
So far, I’ve got 18k to my monthly wordcount and while it’s a little low (because I had one non-writing day and a couple of 1k to a couple hundred word days), I’m still pretty proud of my progress, considering my lack of progress the previous month of January. So, let’s keep up the good work.
Okay, back to THE BEAST QUEEN. Writing it is definitely harder for me because it’s written in 3rd POV, and occasionally, I find myself slipping into 1st. I really need to write more 3rd, even if I feel more comfortable with 1st, no doubt a remnant of the title where I was obsessed with Laurell K Hamilton. Sad I can’t read her books anymore, because it’s just porn and not even well-written porn at that.
I already know what I’m writing, so I don’t think there’s any need to really rehash it here like I had to with EVOLUTION.
So here goes, going to set up Write or Die, or the Focus Booster with the intent of writing until I hit 2k, hopefully not in half an hour because I’m pretty sure I can’t do that again, ick.
Yesterday, the words came a little easier, although it’s always super hard to get the first 100 words for the day. Kind of like jumping straight into a workout without doing some warmups first, hah. Speaking of which, I think beginning tomorrow they’ll start opening the gym at 6, so that’s something to look forward to. I don’t really want to go outside for a walk because it’s been freezing out there. So the gym opening is good for me. I really do think drinking the shake for breakfast is probably responsible for my weight loss. A few weeks ago, my weight was at 115 (holy Christ), but yesterday it was around 110-111, so that’s good.
Today, I’m going to do 2 sessions of Write or Die, at 2k for 1hr. I did 1k at around 15 minutes, so I’m pretty sure I can get down that much. So yeah, 2 sessions, 1 each of THE BEAST QUEEN and EVOLUTION. I’ve got maybe 7 more chapters of EVOLUTION to go. I’m in that last 30% of the book and my word count right now is 50k. My estimated word count was set at 70k but now that I check out my chapter beats, I think it’s more realistically…actually, never mind, looks like 70k might be a good place to set my estimate at. So 20k left, that’s not too much. I just might be able to get to HIS UNTIL DAWN (THD #3) by this month, which would be great. Dave is coming back tomorrow from Taiwan, so I’ll probably write in the morning and then clean the house a bit. Today, hopefully I’ll get the small table so I can write comfortably in the living room.
Checked my FB this morning while I was waking up and making a promise to myself that I won’t check it until tonight. In about an hour, I’m going to make lunch, which will be kungpao chicken. I think, in order for me to eat at home, I have to find recipes that make me excited to make/eat them. Beginning this semester, I’m going to try to pack Dave’s lunches for him. Seems the least I can do, considering how hard he works and how not…hard I work. Hope to change that, but we’ll see.
So yeah, one one-hour session of WoD and then lunch time. Honestly, it won’t take me 1 hr to write 2k, so it’ll probably be less than an hour. I’m going to fill up my coffee cup again and then get writing.
Today, as far as EVOLUTION goes, I’m going to be writing the big scene where Reika has to kill to save herself and those she loves. It’s the part where they get caught by the demons and Matsumoto sacs himself so that Hayashi can take Reika and Himeya back to the free house. After this, there’s another incident where Reika sees demons terrorizing humans and in the outline, I have it as Reika getting sick of seeing people get hurt, so she intervenes, mostly because maybe she feels guilty about letting Matsumoto handle the demons by himself? But why would she put herself in that kind of position when Matsumoto sac’ed himself so that the medicine can get to the people who need it? That’s just selfish and stupid. I think the most realistic Reika would do is…maybe she would give the bags to Himeya and Hayashi and take on the demons herself. But would Himeya let her do it? Also, if it’s just her, why is she confident enough to take on demons when she has zero fighting experience? I really have to think about this. Or maybe I can just write this out.
So…Matsumoto sacs himself and this is where Reika starts to see people giving up their lives for the better good and she feels even shittier about refusing responsibility, even though she is technically the Queen of the demons in Tokyo, because she killed Yuriko. There are demons who are dying because there is no clear chain of command? The Chiba and Saitama demons are looking for her because if she falls, then so does everyone else and there will be no more resistance?
Right, so after Matsumoto sacs himself…what if some more demons give chase? Hayashi tries to sac himself, but he’s a human and Himeya is needed to help heal people, so maybe this time Reika sacs herself, in order to give them time?
So she sacs herself and they try to kill her, but then someone recognizes her and they drag her to see the Chiba leader who has a bounty on her? In route, they themselves get taken out by Ren and Sera and they take Reika back to the safe zone where it is a disaster and Himeya is dead? Or maybe she gets there in time to see Himeya die and Himeya gives her the ribbon and tells her that she believes in Reika?
Yeah…I think that could work. I’m still a little iffy about the whole Ren and Sera rescuing Reika…but maybe they cover her head with a jacket or something? I don’t know, meh.
Okay, I think I know what I’m going to write.
- Matsumoto sacs himself
- They run
- More demons follow
- Hayashi tells Himeya and Reika to go back.
- The medicine is the most important thing and she throws her backpack at Hayashi and tells them to run, while she faces the demons with a crowbar. (I really like this image…she goes through a lot of internal thought to justify why she’s doing this, but mostly I think she’s sick and tired of running away and she’s ready to face her destiny. She has been given this power and she doesn’t want to squander it and she doesn’t want Matsumoto’s sacrifice to be in vain.)
- There were a group of seven demons, three of which Matsumoto managed to put down, so now it’s four against one, but she is stronger, only she doesn’t know how to fight, so she takes down two, but the other two overpower her.
And then the chapter should end here.
Yeah, that looks good. Okay, now if I could just squeeze out the first 100 words, the other 1.9k should be okay, looool.
Okay, 2k written in about 30 mins. Had to take a break halfway through to use the restroom since all I’ve been doing since 8AM is drinking lots of stuff, breakfast shake and coffee. My wrists hurt now. I don’t think I’m using them in a good way, since there’s no place to support my wrists when I’m typing.
But hey, I reached 2k, woohoo. Now I just need to hit another 2k for THE BEAST QUEEN which should take another half hour. I really need to look at getting back into dictating. I’m not sure if I can keep this up.
Now, if you will excuse me, it’s time for lunch.
I feel bad that I didn’t get enough written yesterday. I probably could have, but on the other hand, at least I got something written.
Today’s goal is 2k of EVOLUTION and I want to get back on THE BEAST QUEEN (finally got a title to that untitled fantasy romance!). I’m not sure how I feel about the Write a Novel in a Month class. I’m still checking out the lessons, but I’m not sure how much I’m really learning from it. I’ll still check it out, though, since I paid for it.
It’s Tuesday today, so the ayi is supposed to be here, but it’s already 7:45AM and she’s not here yet. If she does come, she’s usually here by now. I’m a little surprised she didn’t come last week, but I chalked that up to her going on vacation. I’m more surprised she’s not here now. I hope she does come today, because the house needs a really good cleaning. I suppose I could do it myself, but jesus if I’m not lazy.
Yesterday, I went to the store and picked up some ingredients. I’m trying really hard to eat well. I’ll probably make some plain shredded chicken and eat that with salt and pepper with some spinach. For breakfast, I’ll have a shake. I’ve been using broccoli, but I’m not such a fan. I think I prefer spinach, dunno which one is healthier.
I’m starting to slowly wean myself off Facebook. I checked it in the morning before I started writing this, and the next time I’ll check it is in the evening. There’s really nothing for me there. Just lots of politics shit and I’m really tired of it. Trump is so obviously a crook and yet the Republicans are letting him run crazy. Not sure what the hell is going on with that, but we’re expats and for now, the politics don’t follow us. I do think about giving up my US citizenship in favor of something less offensive though.
Okay, I’ve got to get to work. Lots to do today and so very little time.
So today and tomorrow will just be me and I’ll send an email to Red on Monday night and let her know my progress this past weekend. It’s Saturday and I have a full to-do list. I want to write 3.5k today. Dunno if it is possible, but if you want to shoot for the stars, then try it and at least get to the stratosphere? Or something like that.
Yesterday, I got down 1.6k. Meant to hit 2k but I’m okay with 1.6k. If I can just be consistent, that would be fabulous. I’m thinking of not having days off. Maybe one day I’ll just hit my minimum word count and then fuck off the rest of the day. Or fuck off during the day and write at night. Not like I’m not already doing that right now, lol.
The gym is finally back open today, so that’s good. Starting today I’m going to go on a strict diet as well as go back on my evening walks. For lunch, around 11, I’ll have some rice and chicken and broccoli and then I’ll hit the gym, and after the gym, have a banana or something. Then I’ll go for a walk and then maybe have some eggs or something. I have no idea how busy the gym is going to be today, considering that technically, it’s still a holiday, I think until this Monday. And then tomorrow, I’ll be back to the morning walks, since it’s not so cold now.
In other news, Dave will be home in eight days, so that’ll be good. It’s nice to have some time apart and just relax, but it’ll be good to see him again. Classes will be starting up in a bit too, so the extra cash will be good. Really need to send some money to dad and get those edits paid for.
Okay, I think that’s all from me for now. I hope when I check in tomorrow I can say that I hit my wordcount goal.