Managed to get down a little less than 600 hundred words written last night before I went to sleep, so that’s a small victory for me. Unfortunately, I’ve been awake for about two hours now and it is now fifteen minutes before five am, fuck my life. I mean, it’s probably not so bad. I can take a nap in the afternoon, just a couple more hours to make up for the fact that I probably got three hours of sleep.
David talked in his sleep. “TOLD YA” and it was said so clearly, I was almost sure he was awake. Didn’t think so as he fell silent and didn’t say anything else, and was heard snoring a couple minutes later.
But for those two hours I was awake, I did think a lot about my future and what I need to do to prepare for the next 1.5 years before we leave. Or technically, I guess we really only have 1.2 or 1.3 years before we have to leave…hopefully. That is, I hope we leave. Who knows, maybe we’ll be stuck here for another year if Dave can’t find something suitable. Either way, I have to prepare for the worst/best scenario, which is us leaving by summer 2018.
I was reading a book called The Erotica Handbook while I was trying to sleep and thought it was quite interesting…definitely worth a shot, although it’s like I’ve said before: if one wants to make money off erotica, then you have to look at it from a long-term point of view. There’s no way nowadays for someone to just publish a couple of erotica stories and expect to make any money off it. The book I was reading mentioned something about writing an erotica short story at 7.5k, with 2.5k written every day, so that means a 1st draft every three days. Keeping to a 7 day regular 8 hour a day work week, it is possible to start from the 1st draft and hitting publish on Amazon KDP every week. So start writing on Monday, finish the 1st draft by Wednesday, edit on Thursday and Friday, proof/cover design on Saturday and publish by Sunday.
That’s a grueling schedule and I’m not sure if I can do this part-time. If I were to get into this, I would have to make this a full-time thing for a few months and see how that pans out. Conceivably, if I do this for three months, I could come out with 12 short stories and seeing the sales at that point, should be able to give me some kind of idea as to whether it would be a good idea to keep on this. Three months in the scheme of things isn’t that long of a time but when I’ve got until the end of this year to come up with some kind of viable income…
It’s a gamble. Luckily, I type fairly quickly and at 1k every 20 minutes, I can write 2.5k in an hour. That’s not too much time to devote to writing erotica if I want to continue writing erotica and what I want to write. Because at this point, it’s no longer about writing what I want anymore, because I feel like I don’t have enough time anymore to just write what I want. God, I feel like an idiot. We’ve been here since 2013 and I’ve got nothing to show for it. Fuck. I’m so sick of hating myself. I need to change. I realize this. I must change.
I’m going to change.
The problem is, I’ve been saying that for awhile now. Words are cheap, action…not so much.
I wrote down my schedule for today in the last entry, but now, considering that I’ve gotten 3 hours of sleep, I’m not sure how well I can adhere to it. If I could, I’d go back to sleep, but I agreed to meet Beka at the gym at six and I don’t want to not go…as far as the gym is concerned, I’ve blown her off way too often.
On the other hand…if I don’t feel tired…and now that I think about it, I did sleep for 3-something hours from noon to around 3-ish in the afternoon, so maybe those hours, plus the three hours a few hours ago will be enough to keep me going until tonight. I’d believe this if I didn’t have a class to teach tonight, but I might need a few hours to recharge if I’ve going to entertain kids for an hour.
So today, as far as my schedule goes, I’d like to follow this:
8:30-9:00 answer emails
9:00-11:30 writing, half hour spurts with a 5 minute break in between each session
1:30-2:15 reading (maybe I can take a nap at this point?)
And then the rest of the day goes to hell because Dave comes home. It would be great if I can do some art from this time to going to bed since I haven’t wrapped my fingers around the tablet stylus in a few days. I think once I finish the rest of the commissions, I might want to do some fan art, just some art for myself. I’d love to do couple art of Sophie/Howl and Naruto/Hina, maybe even ship Nami/Sanji.
Okay, that’s enough talking from me. I’ve got a few minutes before I’ve got to get ready to go to hit the gym, so I’ll probably read or something, I dunno.
Right, here I go to get ready for the gym. I’ll check in after I come back and have some breakfast (probably will be some toast and a cherry tomato salad, or something easy, dunno…and FUCK IT’S RAINING OUTSIDE, ARGH.)
Okay…back. It’s almost one thirty…or it will be by the time I type this. Finally called about the hospital visit, that’s set up for this Friday, so that’s this Friday completely shot for the most part. I’ll be able to get some work done on the train maybe but if I leave at 7, I probably won’t be able to come back home until 5 or so. Yeah, rush hour traffic both ways, ick. But at least I’m getting it done. It’s been four years since my last gyno check and it’s bad that I’ve waited this long. Still, better late than never…probably wouldn’t apply in this case, ha.
So, I haven’t had lunch yet, but I’ve defrosted the pork steak and I’ll probably eat something with veggies, pork and mushrooms. I should probably marinate the pork before anything else and let it sit in the fridge for a little while…or not.
I’ve decided that instead of closing this entry as soon as I’m finished with it, I’m going to keep it open and keep checking into it from time to time, hopefully when I can check off certain items off my checklist. I know for a fact I won’t be able to hit my lunch time walk, but I’m going to do that after work tonight, so either way, still doing it.
I’m going to head off to my edits now and then I’ll answer some emails that really, really need to be answered.
Okay, the time now is almost four and I’ve just had my…lunch? dinner? I don’t even know. I think it was my dinner. When I come back from my classes/walking, I’ll probably just have some cherry tomatoes for a snack or something else like that. Spent some time and made a pretty awesome stirfry with two different kinds of mushrooms, marinated pork, cabbage, onion and broccoli in a sweet and spicy soy sauce with sesame oil. I’m going to leave in about 1.5 to teach. Dave is probably going to get home in half an hour and then speed off to the gym. I suppose it would be a good idea if I packed his bag for him and made his shake so he can leave as soon as he gets home. I’ll send him a note and see what he says.
Got my clothes through Taobao today and I’m so happy because they all fit! I’ve got two all weather jackets with removable thermal lining, so I am SET for Korea. I’m going to try to stick to a 50 dollar daily budget. So Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday…I really need to call Ctrip and see if I can get my trip cut back a day so I can come back with a friend. I might have to pay a little extra for the change cost, but I think it would even out when you consider how much I’ll have to pay for a taxi by myself in addition to not being able to teach on Wednesday.
Well, called Ctrip and for some reason, they can’t change my flight. Sigh. Guess I’m coming back on Wednesday night by myself. Oh well. Maybe I’ll get a lot of writing done then.
Okay, Dave’s home, so I’m going to answer my emails now. Although, I kind of get the feeling that if I spend the next hour answering emails, there’s no way I’m going to get anything written. On the other hand, I do have all day tomorrow…hrm hrm…
Okay, going to answer the emails.
Finally finished replying to the emails waiting for me, and I can finally move them from the inbox! Now, I have to get ready for work. I’m going to take this laptop with me and go to work a little soon and attempt to get some work done before the kids start showing up.
Okay, went to work, came back, had a small cherry tomato salad and now I am very close to falling asleep. I made plans to go to the gym tomorrow morning at 6 again. It IS hard, but what I need to do is wake up at 5, then going to the gym forty-five minutes later wouldn’t be such a difficult task. If I want to wake up at five, then I should be asleep by ten, right? Yep, If I’m asleep by ten, that means I can get 7 hours of sleep. Well, it’s already 9 now and I haven’t made my breakfast shake, prepared Dave’s coffee, or cleaned the litterboxes. I’ll have to do that at 9:30. Until then, I’ll try to write.
Well, I honestly didn’t think I was going to get any work done today. Certainly I didn’t get anything done yesterday. Slept all day, pretty much did the same thing today. Went for a walk a little while ago with Dave and realized that he’s starting to lose patience with me and I have to start being tough about this writing business. Didn’t really have dinner; just some peanut butter, a granola bar and now I am eating some cherry tomatoes before I decide to move to the couch and try to do some work. Tomorrow morning I’m supposed to go to the gym at 6, which means that I’ll have to wake up at 5:15 or something like that. Nuts! I might have to make my shake before hand and keep it in the fridge overnight. Yeah…
I’ll need to pack my bag before hand too.
Okay, let me take care of three things:
1. Clean the litter box
2. Pack my gym bag
3. Make my shake
4. Look for a portable charger just in case I don’t charge my phone tomorrow morning.
Okay, back. It’s almost ten PM and I’ve gotten everything finished. Made a shake for breakfast, hung up the laundry to dry, got everything ready…except for setting my alarm. BRB. Jesus, I forgot that was what I was trying to do. BRB again.
Okay, got that settled. I swear to God, sometimes I really do worry about having early-onset Alzheimer’s, although this would be super, super early-onset, right?
I’m going to try to get some work done as far as writing goes. Tomorrow I will be super busy. I will wake up at 5:30, get to the gym by 6, come home around 7:30, have breakfast, work until 11:30, have lunch, go for a walk, hopefully get back to work by 1:30 or so, then finish everything at 4:30, have a quick dinner and then go to tutoring. Maybe I’ll go for a walk with Beka afterwards and then we’ll walk until 8:30, I’ll come home at 8:45 and then just do something relaxing until ten or so.
Tuesday might be the same, except for the no tutoring part. Also, I might come home a little sooner on Tuesday since the ayi is coming then.
I really need to finish editing THD #2. I’ll have to email Red about it if I can’t get it finished by Tuesday.
I’ll have to ask her for an estimate, just to make sure I can afford it, otherwise I’ll have to go to with Megan, even though I don’t like her as a person anymore. Sad.
Okay, that’s enough from me. Here’s to hoping I can get a few hundred words down before I close my laptop. Also, I’ve started working on my laptop, because lately it seems like I’m not getting a whole lot of work done on the desktop; too many distractions, imo.
So…my biggest achievement yesterday was taking a four hour nap. Yikes. But I managed to get some writing done and I figured out how to unbrick the cloudbook. The only problem is, the track pad stopped working. I’ve spent pretty much all of last night and this morning trying to find a fix. Also, I’m getting into Chihayafuru, but I think that’s because I just naturally like tsundere/megane characters. Maybe that’s why I was drawn to writing about Nobuki, although now I think I might have a problem writing about another megane character…because what if they’re too alike? (if you’re unsure of what tsundere and megane means, here’s the suitable wiki leaks! Tsundere / Megane)
For breakfast, I had a shake and some coffee and then for lunch, I had a whole wheat wrap with a cheese omelet and some tomato salsa. I feel pretty full. For dinner, I’m going to have the leftovers from yesterday. Considering that it’s already 1 and I’m going to eat around 5, I think my diet today is working! If I get hungry, around 3 or so, I’ll make a cherry tomato salad with olive oil, some vinegar, salt and pepper.
TRACKPAD WORKS NOW! It feels totally shitty, but it works and I live with that. I don’t have to spend money on a new laptop to take on my trip THANK GOD. (still want a new laptop, but won’t need one, maybe not until the summer when I decide that I want a better laptop that I can draw with.) I think the only thing I need now is a big capacity mini/sd card either 64gb or 128gb. Neither will be cheap, but it’ll be cheaper than buying a whole new laptop.
Also, I need to call ctrip and figure out what’s going on with my trip, since they kind of…canceled my return flight due to “political reasons”. I’ll have to do that today, but first I want to do some work.
First thing I want to do is…well, I was going to finish the chapter breakdown, but I got distracted with drawing and now it’s 3. Sigh.
Okay, I’m going to finish the chapter breakdown right now.
Okay, yesterday, wrote around 3.3k, of course it was all part of the planning process and none of it is going into an actual document, but hey, at least I didn’t draw all day, woo! And I even drew a bit too, double woo!
Also no work today. But this morning, I splurged and bought the English version of Trio of Towns. That’ll be something to play in a few weeks when I go to Korea. I think I’m going to get a huge mini sd card to put into the Cloudbook which I have now effectively bricked. Goddamn. Should’ve left it alone, but I had to fuck with it and now I don’t even know what to do with it anymore. I’m going to try to reinstall Ubuntu, figure out what’s going on and try again with Windows 8. I think. I dunno. Argh.
So today’s goal is to…
- Finish 1 pic and get close to finishing another.
- Look up how to draw dust motes.
- Finish the chapter break down for HER SUMMER LOVER
- Write 2k of HSL
- Update website
- Write 3k fo THD #3
- Edit THD #2 for one hour
- Do Day 1 of Blogilates
- Do laundry
- Go for a walk after dinner
- Attempt to fix the Cloudbook
Today, I’m going to eat:
- 2 cups of coffee with coconut oil and creamer
- Breakfast: 2 egg omelet with mozzarella cheese and 2 pieces of toast with grape jelly
- Lunch: a spinach-fruit shake (I really need to cup down on the sugar content of the fruit, I might be sabotaging myself…maybe add some cucumber to bulk it up? Broccoli does not make a good addition, imo, and I can’t get kale here.)
- Chicken with steamed sweet potatoes and cabbage
- Around 2ish, I’m going to make a cherry tomato salad with olive oil, apple cider vinegar and salt/pepper.
So, yeah, busy day today. As far as expenditures go, well, there was the game I just bought for the 3ds, but I also want to get a better speaker system. I also want to get a smaller piece of luggage that won’t be a hassle to deal with. Or I can just stuff everything in the big backpacking bag…which I need to make sure we still have. I need to plan out what I’m taking. I know it’s still 15 days away, half a month really, but I like to plan. Not planning sucks. I guess that’s that difference between Dave and me.
Also, I’ve decided to stay in China for the summer. It’ll suck, but we’ll spend less money and I could do with buckling down and getting some serious work done here. Besides, I’d rather spend money going to JP during National Week in October, anyways.
Okay, that’s all from me for now. I hope I can come back tomorrow and say I hit everything on my to-do list. (dream on, you weirdo)
Okay, so yesterday wasn’t a total wash. Using Gwen Hayes Romancing the Beat book, I got the basic story down for HER SUMMER BOY. Mmm…I dunno. Boy tends to have weird pedo tendencies? Maybe I ought to go with HER SUMMER LOVER. Well, that’s awfully cute. Maybe when I’m not too busy today, I’ll look for a stock photo that Nancy can use for the cover in the antho. But more importantly is finishing the darn story.
Meanwhile, I’ve got the figure out if this is going to be a 1st person or 3rd POV story.
First, I think I’m going to change this keyboard. I like the tactile sensation of typing on it, but I don’t like the overall cheapness of the make and the fact that the skid-proof stickers aren’t…skid proof.
Okay, keyboard changed. The one I changed to is my mechanical one, and I don’t like how loud it is, but…eh. My shoulder aches a bit from continually having it up for the past three days of using the tablet. Today, I’m going to try to work on writing until 1 or 2, and then switch to drawing. I have to remember that writing is the job and drawing is the hobby, not the other way around. There’s no way I’m going to be able to pay for Dave’s beach house with drawing, but there’s a small chance I can buy it with my words.
I’m trying to find the right singer for Saku’s story. Kana Nishino sounds too young, but Hikaru Utada might be too old. I’m still on the fence with Miliya Kato. I know Koda Kumi is too old for this story. Well, not old, but more mature. Maybe it’s not JP songs that fit this story. When I was plotting this last night, I was listening to the most unlikely of inspiration: Berlin of Take My Breath Away fame.
I still don’t have a good feel for this story. Usually when I’m writing a story, I have a good feel for it. I can see it play in my head like a movie, but this one is tricky. I don’t know what Saku looks like. I vaguely remember her as wearing glasses and being slightly overweight? I think she’s younger in THD #1. Hm. Might have to re-read this part.
Okay, I’ve got the general beats down. Saku’s changed a bit since I’ve written her in the first THD book. I’ve got a better feel of Saku, but Jun is still a little mysterious to me. I had breakfast a little while ago, so I think I’ll be able to work for a while longer. I’m not sure when I want to go to the gym. Maybe I’ll go at around noon-ish, come home, have a shake and then do some art.
For now, I think I’m going to work on the chapter breakdown and maybe get in a couple hundred words of the first chapter. In order to make the 4/30 deadline, I need to get this book finished in two weeks or less. Yikes. Here goes nothing!
Oh God. I haven’t written anything since Friday. Actually, I didn’t even write anything on Friday. I’ve just been drawing nonstop since then and it’s now past four on a Sunday. Deadline, what deadline? I really need to be more disciplined. I really do have a feast or famine attitude when it comes to drawing. I’ll draw nonstop for a week or so and then just not draw for weeks/months at a time. I need to be better about this.
I’d like to dedicate 5 hours to writing/editing and 5 hours to drawing. So, that’s 10 hours of working + 8 hours of sleeping, which is 18 hours accounted for, leaving 6 hours that can still be filled by eating, cooking (I can’t believe how long it takes me for to cook something, strangely enough), teaching, and just random w/e, reading etc. Maybe, I can do writing from 8 – 1PM and then after that, draw for the rest of the day or do whatever I want. I need to try that this week and see how it goes. It’s still 30 hours a week to both writing and drawing, so 60 hours of work a week. That’s quite substantial.
Going to Korea in a few weeks. Before then, I have to figure out how to fix the laptop, either that or just load up my work on an sd card and then transfer it back when I come back. Since I’m going to be gone for a while, I can’t afford to just loaf around the time. I’m not sure how much work I’ll get done, but I have to at least make the effort.
My goal for this week is to finish the small edits for THD #2 and send that off to Red by the end of this week. I did a lot of art today, so I’m going to try to spend the next few hours doing some writing work. Most importantly, I think I need to plot the Her Summer Boy story so I can start tomorrow or something. I already behind, fuuuuck. Just goes to show you that there’s no point in spending money in planners because I can’t maintain them more than a week.
Okay, it’s almost five, I’ll start now and try to finish by 7 or so. I woke up at 5 today, worked until 12 and took a long nap with one of our kitties and now…I’m trying to get some work done. Let’s do this!
Whelp, yesterday was a bust. Barely got 500 words. I don’t know how to explain why I couldn’t finish my tasks yesterday. On the other hand, it was a pretty active day for me. I walked twice and started Day 1 of Blogilates. I’m going to try the first day again because I couldn’t complete it yesterday. I’m going to also try to walk twice today. I have a class today at 6:30, so I’ll leave the house around 5:40, just to make sure I get there ahead of time.
Finally got the timeline for the summer charity anthology, so that’s good. Red recommending me using ROMANCING THE BEAT by Gwen Hayes to write the novella I’m going to submit, which was a really good tip because I completely forgot I had the book. So, I’ll be doing that today.
On the other hand, I think my art is improving? Really hard to say. Today, I’m going to get my arting out of the way and try to get writing by 9.
Also, I haven’t taken naps since Sunday. No naps Monday, none Tuesday and here’s to hoping none today.
I might start writing out of sequence for THD #3, considering how close I am to the end. Yeah, it’s 15k, which maybe isn’t a very small number, but I can see the end in sight and boy, does it look good.
Also also, starting today I’m going to try to email Red in the evening because I kind of feel like I’m spending way too much time answering correspondences when I could be writing. It’s very clear that I’m not really capable of writing past seven, although there are exceptions. Very, very, very exceptional, um, exceptions.
Okay, that’s all from me. I’m going to do some drawing to get my creative juices flowing and then I hope to start writing at 9. Here goes nothing!
Well, the last two days was a complete bust. Although I kind of figured it would be. Next time, if I want to get some kind of work finished on the weekends, I’d be better off writing early in the morning before David wakes up.
Already made plans for National Week; plan to go to Japan with Kaitlyn and Alex. Admittedly, I did bank on Japan being one of those places Alex would like to go to, and I figured they needed a translator. Dave says he might want to go, so that’ll be nice.
Still not sure about this summer though. Definitely going to Korea in a few weeks, will buy the tickets this weekend or so, but as for the summer in Chicago…I’m not sure. I’ll have to talk to my parents and see if they really REALLY want to meet his folks…or if they just feel obligated to do so. If they just feel it’s something they ought to do, I’m going to recommend maybe they save this until next year. I dunno know. I just feel like it’s kind of one-sided…my parents going all the way to Chicago? Maybe they can meet in LA or something. I’ll talk to my folks when I get there this month. I just don’t feel comfortable paying 800-900 bucks for a ticket to Chicago if I’m only going to be there for a week or two. I’d rather just stay here and write a lot during that time.
Today, I’d like to plan out the short story for that summer charity anthology I agreed to be in. Still not sure how I want to write it. I definitely want to write an Okinawa-themed thing. Or maybe a Taiwan themed story. Or maybe even an LA themed thing. I do want it to be a beach/surfer kind of romance, though. Hah, I guess I’m not even that sure on that either. I guess it’s safe to say that I don’t know anything about this. I don’t want to back out of this and it’ll be good practice, anyways. Maybe I’ll write a short story featuring Julian, meeting a Japanese girl on the Santa Monica pier. I still have to flesh out what his occupation is. Maybe I’ll have him change jobs to be a freelance translator…although I can’t imagine that pays a whole lot, LOOOL. Maybe I’ll have him be a semi-professional, somewhat successful writer. It certainly save on researching…or maybe I’m just being a lazy idiot.
I already know what I’m going to eat for lunch, and it’ll be from yesterday’s dinner, so that’ll be fast. Breakfast will be a shake and dinner, might be omurice again, LOL.
So, today my writing plans are as follows:
- Write at least 3k of THD #3. I’ve reached the halfway point, the Point of No Return #2.
- Edit THD #2.
- Plan out summer anthology novella.
- I’m supposed to start edits for DMR, but I don’t know if I have the nerves to face that. /Sigh
Today, I have class at 6:30 and then another class on Wednesday, but those classes are so easy, it almost feels like I’m being overpaid. Ah well, the best I can do is just teach them the best way I can.
Okay, that’s all for now. I have to remember to email Red later tonight because emailing her now seems kind of pointless since I don’t have anything to tell her except that I failed really badly this weekend, LOL. I think I need to read the short story thingie that James Scott Bell wrote, because I don’t know if I know how to write a short story, LOOOOL.
Okay, now I’m really REALLY going.
It’s March. Last month I got around 45k in my word count, which isn’t half bad. I’m hoping to get twice that this month. That’ll be my goal.
That and getting THD #2 out on Amazon before April rolls around. Whew. I don’t know if I’ll do any promo for it. Also, I need to get another newsletter, this one for contemporary romance, as opposed to UF/Paranormal romance.
So much to do and yet so little time.
Today, I hope to do 6 sessions of writing and 4 sessions of editing. I think the most I ever got down was 4 sessions of writing.
Also, I have class at 6:30. We won’t be reviewing, so hopefully the kids will enjoy this class more. After lunch, I’ll go for a walk, come home and watch THE INVASION for some deconstruction work and then it’s back to work.
I’ve got Freedom blocking FB and I think, so far, it’s working well. I’m not on Facebook, duh, so that’s one less thing I have to worry about.
I started reading a Nora Roberts book, so my goal is to finish it today and then start on another book tomorrow. For the walk, I’ve downloaded a bunch of podcasts, so that’ll be pretty fun to do.
I want to get down 3 writing sessions before I start making lunch, but for now, I’m heating up a little rice to eat some chicken so I don’t have to worry about an empty stomach because it’s hard to keep writing or staying focus when you’re hungry.
I’m going to try to get down some words now before I eat and then another two before I break for lunch, so here gooooessss…!
Well…this last weekend was a total bust, and I have no one else to blame by myself, blegh. Got the new computer back on Saturday night, but it came loaded with Windows 10, which I do not like in the least and the drivers wouldn’t work with the old printer, so I had to reinstall Windows 7. Which was just as well, considering that the guy who fixed the computer left a bunch of programs I didn’t like and it wasn’t really an English version of Windows, he just changed the names of a couple of stuff. So spent the rest of Saturday night reinstalling Windows and then yesterday, we had people over for a board game day, and after that, I was super pooped. You know, what with people sapping my energy and all.
Today, I’m hoping to get 4 or more 15 minute writing sessions, but I’m aiming for 6. Then 2 or 3 editing sessions, then I’ll email Red. I’ve turned Freedom on to block Facebook until 4 as it’s easily my biggest time sapper.
No new classes this week, sigh. I get the feeling that the next few months are going to be super lean for me. I don’t know how I’m going to pay for edits and send money to Dad every month without having to take money from Dave, sigh.
I wanted to go to the gym today, but I don’t think I will until Wednesday, because tomorrow the ayi is coming and today I wanted to stay home and get some work done. I hate going to the gym unless it’s super early, but geez, it’s still cold out. I can’t wait until I can turn off the heater or until my hands stop getting super cold. That’s probably the hardest thing.
Ah, the problems of a first-world citizen.
Okay, I’m going to do some writing now, then editing and then probably make lunch. After lunch, I’ll take a walk and then come home and do some more work. I have class tonight at 6:30.
Well, here goes.